Chapter Eleven
When I look back at my relationships with men, I see a pattern. As a child my strong will was juxtaposed with wanting to please my father. As a teenager I knew I wanted to write songs and earn the respect of people I hoped would someday be my peers, and though I took some important steps on my own along that path, my ambitions were powered in part by the pride I knew my dad would take in my accomplishments. Though my mother, too, took tremendous pride in my achievements, I took her approval for granted. By the time I was a grown woman, seeking the approval of a man had become a firmly established element of my psychological framework. And because my father had been so effective in solving problems and making things happen, I grew to believe that it was easier to take strong, steady action toward a goal with a man to help me get there.
Gerry Goffin’s determination to succeed in the early sixties had driven me harder than I might have driven myself. Not only did we write more songs in service of the pressure he felt to provide for his family, but we wrote better songs because of his insistence on excellence. In the late sixties I had become a recording artist with the consistent encouragement of Charlie Larkey, Danny Kortchmar, and Lou Adler. And in 1970 I became a performing artist after James Taylor pushed me forward. Though I was never romantically involved with Danny, Lou, or James, all were mightily influential in my development.
Given this pattern, it’s not difficult to see why I believed I needed Rick Evers to help me move my family to a slower-paced, natural environment.
That September weekend in 1978, I wasn’t looking for anyone to teach my children and me how to live more fully and richly on the land in the wild and woolly western state I now called home. But if I had been looking for such a person, could anyone have been more suitable than someone called Teepee Rick?
Saturday morning dawned brisk and sunny. Molly, Levi, and I enjoyed a delightful 115-degree soak in the pool. We walked to the campground to refill our water jugs, then set out to explore the little town. We were curious to see what was inside the structures that hadn’t been rented out. It was the second of September. The fall colors were already beginning to promise October splendor. Patches of leaves among the groves of aspens were quaking orange and gold against the evergreen forest of mostly lodgepole pines. Burgdorf Meadow held a variety of glorious tall grasses and the last wildflowers of the summer season. The leaves on the low-lying bushes on the hillsides above the meadow had already turned red. White clouds punctuated the crystal blue sky with Rorschach-like images ranging from double exclamation points to white bunnies in love.
Molly, almost seven, had been a voracious reader since she was four. As if by magnetic attraction, it was she who first poked her head into what Joyce had called “the library cabin.” All three of us were immediately drawn in by the accumulation of books left by visitors over the years. The library cabin policy was simple: anyone was free to take a book or leave one. Burgdorf’s readers had left so many books that we found selecting a single book as difficult as eating just one potato chip. When we emerged from the library cabin an hour later with our selections, we saw Joyce waving to us from the porch of her cabin just above us.
“Come on up and have a cup of tea with us,” she called.
Us? I thought as we scrambled up the hill.
The children had no interest in entering a dark cabin on such a beautiful day. Molly wanted to stay on the porch and read, while Levi was more interested in the paints that Joyce had set on a table outside. After getting the kids settled on the porch I followed Joyce in. At first I couldn’t see anything. Then my eyes adjusted to the darkness and I saw two men in the cabin. One was sitting on the edge of Joyce’s bed, which doubled as a couch. Joyce introduced him as “Che” (as in Guevara). The other man was sitting on a worn brown vinyl beanbag chair with his long legs crossed in front of him. He was industriously tamping a pipe.
“Carole,” Joyce said. The long-legged man looked up. “This is Teepee Rick.”
Rick Sorensen was relaxed and comfortable as he smoked his pipe. He was an entertaining storyteller whose dry humor added to listeners’ interest in what was already a good story. From the banter between him and Che I gleaned that Rick had a girlfriend with whom he lived in a teepee that he moved seasonally. In the late spring and summer they lived in McCall, where Rick worked as a carpenter and his girlfriend as a nurse. During the summer they boarded their horses in McCall or Cascade. Together they earned enough to pay for their own food, the horses’ board, and winter supplies for them, their dog, and the horses. In the late fall, just before the first big snow closed backcountry roads for the winter, Rick trailered the horses and hauled the teepee to his mining claim on the South Fork of the Salmon River. Hence the nickname Teepee Rick. He performed the required mining activities to keep his claim active, but the Mining Law of 1872 didn’t allow permanent structures on such claims. Hence the teepee.
Rick and Che had come to Burgdorf to hunt. Many Idahoans depended on the skill of their family’s hunters to bring home an elk or a couple of deer during the legal season, the dates of which varied from year to year but usually began after the males had rutted and the females were carrying next season’s young. Idaho Fish and Game monitored the populations of various species of wildlife and adjusted the regulations each year. Normally only male elk and deer were taken unless Fish and Game determined that there was an excess of females that year. Prior to living in Idaho I had not been a fan of guns or hunting, but I was beginning to learn that there was a natural order between animal herds and my Idaho neighbors. Responsible humans were part of the ecosystem. Hunting was a way of keeping populations of wild animals in balance while providing human families with a source of protein. I didn’t hunt, but I did eat. I was mostly vegetarian and ate almost no meat, but I didn’t condemn those who did eat meat. I could only hope that those who hunted would do it in a respectful manner.
As the conversation went on I learned that Rick was thirty and that his girlfriend was less than enthusiastic about going back to the South Fork that winter. I listened to Rick and Che tell stories in Joyce’s cabin until my kids came in to tell me that they were bored and hungry. The guys were planning to go out early the next morning. Soon they would tub, then they would sleep in the hayloft in the Harrises’ old barn to save the cost of a cabin rental. I said good night, brought the kids back to our own cabin, and gave them dinner.
Later, after the children had gone to sleep, I asked Joyce if she would come over and stay with them while I went to take a tub under the stars. I figured the guys would have already come and gone and I’d have the pool all to myself. I walked to the upper end of the big pool, got undressed, and left my clothes on the bench. In that decade, many among my generation didn’t wear bathing suits even in daylight. I wasn’t wearing one that night, but I wasn’t concerned. I was alone, and even if someone else had been there, it was too dark to see anything. I paused to look up and marvel at the clarity of the stars against the dark sky. Then I sat down at the edge of the pool and slid into the water.
Ooh! Oh! Ow!… Ahhhhhhh…
Splash!
Someone was at the lower end of the pool. I called out.
“Hello?”
Two male voices called back.
“Hello!”
They belonged to Rick and Che, who swam up to my end of the pool. There we expanded our earlier conversation until Che announced that he was overheated and ready to call it a night. Rick and I stayed and talked about people we knew, places we’d been, and opinions we shared. We created a waterfall of words that tumbled over, but couldn’t hide, our mutual attraction.
The next time I looked up, the stars were in a completely different configuration than when I had first arrived. My fingers were wrinkled, I was much too warm, and Joyce was undoubtedly keen to get back to her cabin.
I was just beginning to climb out when Rick pulled me back in.