CHAPTER ONE
If the prerequisite of any great writer’s life is an unhappy childhood, then Richard Yates was especially blessed. It was not something he liked to talk about as an adult except in the most oblique terms. Once, as he walked past one of his many childhood apartments in Greenwich Village, he pointed to the iron bars on the window and remarked to a friend, “My little legs stuck out of those bars and I used to kick the bricks—kick, kick, kick…” If pressed, he might explain that he was sitting alone in the dark, staring outside and waiting for his mother to come home. And if he was drunk and sad enough, he might talk about his mother’s alcoholism, or her involvement with strange men; sometimes he’d even say that he hated her. But that sort of thing was rare.
Yates aspired to a high standard of decorum both in art and life. A passage he cut from an early draft of his story “A Natural Girl,” has the Yates-like protagonist David Clark announce to his young wife, “I must’ve had the most fucked-up childhood in American history. I’ve told you a lot about my parents and all that. But I’ve always held back. I’ve never gotten down to the pain of it. I’ve been hiding and pretending all my life.” It’s easy to see why Yates cut this. First of all, it doesn’t quite ring true in terms of the character (as Yates liked to challenge his students, “Would that character say that? I don’t think so”), but also David Clark’s damaged psyche can be suggested in far more satisfying aesthetic terms—for example, his willingness to wear his hair “in the manner of the actress Jane Fonda” because he thinks his wife will like it that way. Such details objectify the matter nicely, and no mention need be made of the character’s fucked-up childhood. And so in life Yates contented himself, when sober and at his best, with the image of a barred window: “Kick, kick, kick…” He knew that direct explication rarely told the whole truth, and above all he was determined to be truthful. And one of the essential truths of Yates’s childhood—of his whole life, perhaps—is that he loved and admired his mother at least as much as he later claimed to despise her. She was a source of pain he never could evade, though writing about her helped.
She was born in Greenville, Ohio, the seat of Darke County (she later spelled Darke without the e, perhaps by way of suggesting a general benightedness). Greenville, in the far western part of the state near the Indiana border, was a town of some five thousand souls in the late nineteenth century, and to this day preserves some of its frontier ethos. Annie Oakley is and will always be the town’s favorite daughter—she joined Buffalo Bill’s Wild West Show in 1885, six years before Yates’s mother was born—and one may attend the annual “Annie Oakley Days” festival there, or see the many local examples of antique steam-driven farm machinery, or visit the site where the Treaty of Greenville was signed once the Indians were subdued and this outpost secured in the name of progress. Progress meant farms and schools and Main Street merchants, and of course churches: By 1875 the citizenry was divided among eight Protestant churches and one Catholic. It was a world perhaps best evoked in the pages of Winesburg, Ohio: “Men labored too hard and were too tired to read. In them was no desire for words printed upon paper. As they worked in the field, vague, half-formed thoughts took possession of them. They believed in God and in God’s power to control their lives.”
Yates’s grandfather, Amos Bigelow Maurer, was one of sixteen children born to German immigrants, Henry and Julia Ann (Bigler) Maurer. Amos was twenty-two in 1871, when he left the hamlet of Bradford for a session of schooling in Greenville, about ten miles away. He planned to clerk for a dry-goods merchant that summer, but first he needed to perfect his penmanship, the better to write out orders and receipts with a credible flourish. His teacher in Greenville was Fannie Hatch Walden, and her own penmanship was impeccable—full of ornate curlicues and so forth, such that the sense of what she wrote was liable to be lost amid the finery, which was just as well. At any rate she subsequently corresponded with her favorite pupil and “dear friend Mr. Maurer,” who in turn did his tremulous best to emulate Miss Walden’s skill. With a well-meaning travesty of loops and swirls, he wrote her from such towns as Minster, where he worked at a private auction on behalf of his employer, Mr. Sharpe: “He says I am the best clerk for a beginner that he ever seen. I was in the store until ten o’clock, sold about fourty dollars worth. I have learned a great deal in the way of dry goods.” But the Minster letter ends on a doleful note. “I don’t like this town a bit. Because the people are all German,” Amos explained, without detectable irony, and Fannie replied: “I should like to have seen you when you sold the first yard of goods. Would it not be nice if you could be a clerk for Mr. Sharpe a while and do so well. After a while be clerk for yourself.” The two had been corresponding for more than a year before they attained this level of intimacy.
In October 1873 the hand of Providence pressed them together at last; with the end of their long courtship in sight, the letters suggest the kind of life they envisioned in the heart of Darke County. Fannie, but a week away from moving out of Widow Adams’s boarding house on northeast Main Street, described a funeral she’d attended for one of the more venerable citizens of nearby Union: “[He] was buried in the honors of the Odd Fellows last Tuesday his name was McFeely and there were five different lodges here. His remains were conveyed to the cemetery in the new hearse which we seen at the fair.” Such were the rewards of a busy life devoted to faith, family, and friends—five lodges!—and Amos was as anxious to get on with it as Fannie. He wrote her a prenuptial poem to this effect: “I know thine’s no worldly heart,” it began accurately, then went on a bit and ended with,
And now the day’s close at hand.
But, dear, it’s far enough away,
Yet soon we’ll be one happy band.
I’ll close wishing you a good day.
For the honeymoon they went to Dayton.
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Over the next eighteen years Amos and Fannie had seven children, at least four of whom, it’s safe to say, were made more or less in their parents’ image. The oldest daughter Ida lived to the virtuous age of ninety-one, and spent her dotage painting flowers in watercolor and collecting Saturday Evening Post covers in bound fifty-two-page volumes, one for each year.* Margaret, Mina, and Love Maurer married young and moved away from Greenville; later they joined Ida and their parents in ostracizing their brother Rufus, who’d gone to Washington, D. C., and married a Jew. Elsa Maurer was different, somewhat; at least as respectable as her sisters, and deeply spiritual, she inherited these qualities without quite the dose of provincial bigotry that went with them. Rather late in life she married a math professor who, within a few years, drowned off the coast of Galveston; before and after this event, Elsa devoted her life to contemplating the Infinite and helping her sister Ruth, the youngest and most wayward of the lot. As with Rufus, the rest of the family would have little to do with Ruth and vice versa—which left Elsa, who always had both time and a bit of money to spare.
Ruth Walden Maurer was born December 31, 1891, though her entry in Who’s Who of American Women gives her birthday as exactly five years later, as do her entries in all the various artists’ directories and even her Social Security application. Indeed, it’s likely that her own children—who called her “Dookie” to distinguish her from her daughter and namesake—were unsure of their mother’s age until a sad day in 1961 when circumstances forced them to find a birth certificate (“you know how Pookie’s always been about her age,” says Sarah Grimes in The Easter Parade). But such fudging was a minor detail in a vast reinvention that began almost at birth—a quest for self-realization by a woman who was, as her son wrote of her model in A Special Providence, “remarkable and gifted and brave”:
How else could anyone explain the story of her life? At the turn of the century, when all the sleeping little towns of Indiana had lain locked in provincial ignorance, and when in that environment a simple dry-goods merchant named Amos Grumbauer had raised six ordinary daughters, wasn’t it remarkable that his seventh had somehow developed a passion for art, and for elegance, and for the great and distant world of New York?
Give or take a few syllables, the passage sticks to the facts, as does most of Yates’s fiction about his family. Just like Alice Prentice in A Special Providence, Dookie left her hometown before she finished high school, and was in fact one of the first female students at the Cincinnati Art Academy, where she studied China Painting and Drawing from Life. At the time she had only a vague idea of becoming an artist, and wouldn’t settle on a particular métier until much later. Her immediate goal was to gain the skills to get out of Ohio and find a job in New York, and never to look back except in scorn and derision. For the rest of her life Dookie scoffed at everything that struck her as bland and bourgeois, though in one respect (at least) she never left Greenville: No matter how bohemian she later affected to be, or how destitute she often became, Dookie was always proud to call herself a “good Republican.” “[S]he had probably grown up hearing the phrase ‘good Republican’ as an index of respectability and clean clothes,” Yates speculated in a later story. “And maybe she had come to relax her standards of respectability … but ‘good Republican’ was worth clinging to.”
Dookie would later say she married beneath her, and no doubt she meant a number of things by that; at least in one respect, though, she married about as far above herself as she could get. For Richard Yates’s lineage on his father’s side is very distinguished indeed—what’s more, Yates was aware of this. “I know,” he replied, when his nephew Peter (an amateur genealogist) told him they were direct descendants of one of the country’s first great men, Governor William Bradford of Plymouth. The most powerful colonial governor, a man of legendary virtue, Bradford is perhaps best known as the self-taught author of History of Plimouth Plantation—a classic among literary annals, notable for its directness of style, the author’s determination to tell the truth in the plainest possible language. Yates, if he gave the matter much thought (and there are reasons to suspect he did), may well have been proud of such an ancestor.
The Bradford connection came through Yates’s paternal grandmother, Clarissa Antoinette Cleveland, a member of the same illustrious, many-branched family that produced Grover, the country’s twenty-second and twenty-fourth president, and Moses, the founder of Cleveland, Ohio. In 1864 Clarissa married a seminarian, Horatio Yates, who later became one of the most active and respected Methodist clergymen in central New York. The followers of John Wesley stress the social responsibility of Christians, and Horatio Yates clearly took that aspect of his calling to heart. After moving his growing family from one tiny pastorate to another throughout Cayuga County, Yates became chaplain of Auburn State Prison in 1887, a year after the birth of his eighth and last child, Vincent Matthew, the father of Richard Yates. Vincent’s formative years, then, were spent (happily or not) in the parsonage of a prison that was infamous for its brutality. The so-called Auburn system was informed by the spirit of Calvinism, a belief in the utter depravity of humankind, and its foremost mandate was to break the prisoners’ spirits through beatings and floggings, forced labor, solitary confinement, shaved heads, striped suits, and lockstep. Such a life was conducive to thinking about one’s heavenly reward, and in 1826 the Auburn warden, Gershom Powers, conceived the idea of a resident chaplain—a man “activated by motives of public policy and Christian benevolence,” he wrote. “Residing with convicts, and visiting their solitary and cheerless abodes, they will consider him their minister, their guide, their counselor, and their friend.”
The evidence suggests that Horatio Yates was all these things. One of his grandson’s most cherished possessions was a violin lovingly carved by a prisoner for Chaplain Yates, with a woman’s head at the end of the fingerboard and a mother-of-pearl inlaid case.*Horatio Yates’s devotion to his wayward flock became a matter of public record in August 1890, when the country’s first capital punishment by electrocution took place at Auburn State Prison. William Kemmler had killed his common-law wife Tillie Ziegler with a hatchet, and was held in a single cell for almost a year waiting for death. Horatio Yates visited the man several times a week, and read to him from a picture Bible (Kemmler was mentally deficient). The prisoner’s last hours were spent in prayer with the kindly chaplain, who proved such a comfort that Kemmler insisted he be one of the twenty-six witnesses to the execution. “Gentlemen, I wish you all good luck,” said Kemmler as he was strapped to the chair. “I believe I am going to a good place and I am ready to go.” Horatio Yates, having convinced the poor man of God’s infinite mercy, sat and watched with the others as shock after shock failed to kill him—as he gasped and gurgled, his teeth grinding audibly, the capillaries bursting on his cheeks, the room filling with the stench of roasting flesh and feces, until several witnesses fainted and the district attorney ran retching for the door. Chaplain Yates’s reaction went unrecorded, though the episode might have put things in a curious perspective for a while. In any case he continued to serve as chaplain for seven more years, and his passing in 1912 was noted at respectful length by all the Auburn newspapers.
His son Vincent was destined for a life of comparative obscurity. A small man of average good looks and few apparent pretensions, he made little impression on his son or the world at large except in a single respect: He had a lovely tenor voice, though not quite enough talent or monomania to make a career out of it. “I think he sang professionally a few times,” Yates surmised in A Good School. “I imagine he joined the General Electric Company in Schenectady as a delaying action, in order to have a few dollars coming in while he continued to seek concert engagements, but before very long the company swallowed him up.” This is Yates being characteristically scrupulous; most likely he knew very little about his father’s life, and even in a piece of fiction (albeit one published as an “autobiographical foreword” in the New York Times Book Review) he would not pretend otherwise. It’s quite possible that Vincent Yates tried to sing professionally, failed, and then accepted the truth of his relative mediocrity and spent the rest of his life, sadder but wiser, as a small-time corporate drone—that he was, in short, a kind of Yatesian hero: the modest man who refuses to live a lie. That, anyhow, is the way Yates portrays him in the fiction, though it appears to have been a somewhat revisionist view.
Outside his work Yates rarely discussed his father. To his friends, family, and even his psychiatrist he dismissed Vincent as a cipher, someone he hardly knew. But imaginatively he tried hard to fathom this rather dull but decent man who spent most of his adult life as an assistant regional sales manager for General Electric (Mazda Lamp Division); who was patient and reliable in meeting the demands of a flamboyant, profligate ex-wife; and who had a fine singing voice but at some point gave it up for good. Yates’s fullest fictional treatment of his father is “Lament for a Tenor,” his second published story, written eleven years after Vincent’s death.* It seems to reflect a rather guilty impulse to pay belated homage to the man. The protagonist is a sixteen-year-old boy who tries to find something to mourn in a dead father he’d always neglected; among other things he recalls one of his infrequent visits to his father’s office, where a framed photograph of a salesmen’s outing at Tupper Lake had caught his eye: “[H]e came upon his father … between two heavy bald men whose glasses flashed in the sun.… He looked as if he’d tried all weekend to get into the spirit of the thing … [but] was lonely and tired now, anxious to go home and even beginning to feel sorry for himself, an operatic tenor lost among the salesmen.” A series of further flashbacks culminates in an epiphanic moment when, as a very small child, the protagonist actually heard his father sing: “When his voice came, it was amazingly big and rich, filling the room: ‘La donna è mobile/Qual piuma al ven-n-to…’” And though his father botches the final high note with a cough (“my wind’s shot”), the son is “too full of pride and love to speak.”
Vincent is an essentially idealized figure in the fiction (too idealized in the case of “Tenor,” which might explain why the story was never collected): His typical function, at least in the later work, is to serve as foil to the selfish, pretentious characters based on Yates’s mother, and both parents suggest a larger dialectic between realistic and romantic viewpoints—that is, between people like Vincent who refuse to deceive themselves, who don’t insist on their own importance, and people like Dookie who do. To some degree Vincent may have been such a paragon (certainly he was good about paying alimony), but in everyday life, at least, his son wasn’t particularly sentimental about him, and was even somewhat equivocal about who neglected whom. “I didn’t give a shit about why he wasn’t home,” said Yates. “I just wanted him there.”
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Dookie and Vincent were married on July 3, 1920. She was pushing thirty, and he was on the brink of premature middle age, and one assumes that both were lonely. Later Dookie would deplore having married such a tedious man, and perhaps God alone can measure the magnitude of Vincent’s regret, but at the time it might have made a kind of sense. Both had fled from rather claustrophobic home lives—in Vincent’s case a literal prison, no less—where each had been the youngest and least conventional of a large family.* Both had a degree of artistic talent, and all the better for Dookie that Vincent had given up his own manqué striving to devote himself to a mundane but respectable career; he could thus support her growing desire to become a sculptor. And finally, by most accounts, both were alcoholics, as both their children would be.
Their daughter, Ruth, was born August 4, 1921, and spent her first eight years in the picturesque village of Hastings-on-Hudson, ten or so miles upriver from Manhattan. Later Ruth would say that those early years in Hastings had been the happiest of her life—as much a reflection on the relative happiness of her adulthood as on that idyll by the Hudson. Be that as it may, her parents’ marriage was two-thirds over when her brother, Richard Walden,* was born on February 3, 1926, in a Yonkers hospital. He later wrote that his sister’s nostalgia for the Hastings era made him envious “because [he] could scarcely remember it at all.” And since Yates wasn’t inclined to write about things he couldn’t remember in terms of mimetic mood and detail, his fiction gives only a faint glimpse of that time—as in Cold Spring Harbor, when the father’s “look of ruddy health after the first few swallows of whiskey” reminds his son, vaguely, “of rare and unexpected Christmas mornings, long ago.” Hardly a vision of Proust-ian enchantment, but for Yates it would have to suffice. By the time he was three, the best of his childhood was over.
To understand why his parents divorced one may look in a number of directions. Dookie’s artistic pretensions had become more desperate with time, and it may have been that Vincent didn’t take these seriously enough, or at any rate balked when she asked him to pay for a year of study in Paris. And perhaps, for Dookie, all this was part of a greater malaise—a sense that she was being “stifled” like her counterpart Pookie in The Easter Parade, who “always used to compare herself with the woman in A Doll’s House.” As for Vincent, there were probably times when the dull grind of breadwinning got him down, and like the father in A Special Providence he may have been driven to the odd bout of debauchery (“he would disappear for three and four days at a time and come home reeking of gin, with lipstick all over his shirt”). And perhaps, too, it was partly a matter of Vincent’s enthusiasm for Democratic Party politics, his friendships with “dreadful little Irish people from Tammany Hall,” as the Dookie surrogate (a “good Republican”) puts it in “Oh, Joseph, I’m So Tired.”
In sum they seem to have been very different people after all, with little more in common than a fondness for liquor and cigarettes. Dookie left after nine years and took the children—but more particularly she took her son. As Yates wrote in A Good School, he and his father had an “unspoken agreement”:
I had been given over to my mother. There was pain in that assumption—for both of us, I would guess, though I can’t speak for him—yet there was an uneasy justice in it too. Much as I might wish it otherwise, I did prefer my mother. I knew she was foolish and irresponsible, that she talked too much, that she made crazy emotional scenes over nothing and could be counted on to collapse in a crisis, but I had come to suspect, dismally, that my own personality might be built along much the same lines. In ways that were neither profitable nor especially pleasant, she and I were a comfort to one another.
By the time Yates wrote these lines he’d had fifty years to reflect on just how alike he and his mother were, indeed to be reminded of it again and again, and while he despised his mother’s failings all the more for seeing them in himself, such an awareness certainly improved (and in some ways was limited to) his art. As a young man he discovered Flaubert, and Dookie became his foremost Emma; his sense of her, and hence humanity, proved vital to his bleakly deterministic worldview. As he explained in a 1972 interview, his characters “all rush around trying to do their best—trying to live well, within their known or unknown limitations, doing what they can’t help doing, ultimately and inevitably failing because they can’t help being the people they are. That’s what brings on the calamity at the end.” Yates’s compassion for human weakness, for the flaws that make failure so inevitable, is everywhere in his work—with the occasional exception of certain characters based on his mother, which range from the rounded and essentially forgivable Alice Prentice in A Special Providence to Dickensian grotesques such as Pookie in The Easter Parade and Gloria Drake in Cold Spring Harbor. Tellingly or not, Yates also tended to be hard on characters based on himself. But all are worthy of our sympathy in at least one respect: They try to do their best but fail because of limitations over which they have no control. “After all, she was only human,” Yates liked to say of his mother, having just relieved himself of some scathing diatribe on the subject.
For much of Yates’s early life, though, he and Dookie were a comfort to one another. Daughter Ruth was something of a comfort as well, but she was more her father’s child, and after the divorce she continued to visit him as much as possible; at one point she even pretended to need weekly (rather than monthly) orthodontia as a pretext for going into the city. But Richard had never really known his father and never really would; he preferred to stay home with Dookie, a kindred soul whom he resembled not only in temperament but appearance—from the great mournful eyes and dark pouches beneath them to the never-corrected overbite that made his plump upper lip protrude slightly—features he despised.
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The first thing Dookie did after the divorce was take that trip to Paris. She’d been accepted by the Académie Julian to study under the eminent sculptor Paul Landowski, but also she wanted to expose her precocious three-year-old to the kind of high culture that only Paris could provide.* She left Ruth behind with her sister Elsa, a decision that was likely a mutual one. There was the expense of taking both children, and while it seems reasonable to take a sentient eight-year-old for company rather than a toddler, Ruth was probably only too happy to stay behind, knowing even then what a trip abroad with Dookie might entail.
What Dookie hoped to achieve was perhaps more complicated than she was willing to admit: On the one hand, she meant to learn her craft from a great master and perhaps achieve greatness herself; but the girl from Greenville might also observe Continental manners firsthand, and refine the kind of sophisticated persona that might enable her, along with her reputation as an artist, to be admitted into the highest social circles. “The art of sculpture and the idea of aristocracy had always appealed to her equally,” Yates wrote in A Good School, a notion he explored further in “Oh, Joseph, I’m So Tired”: “Her idea was that any number of rich people, all of them gracious and aristocratic, would soon discover her: they would want her sculpture to decorate their landscaped gardens, and they would want to make her their friend for life.” It’s possible that Dookie’s artistic aspirations were animated to some extent by petty snobbery; but it’s also fair to point out—as many do—that she worked hard to realize such talent as she had, and often under circumstances that were far from aristocratic. And then, too, it’s hard to blame her for hoping to make friends with the sort of people to whom it might never occur to collect Saturday Evening Post covers in bound volumes.
Whether Dookie found what she was looking for in Paris is impossible to say. What was meant to be a year of study was cut short after six months or so, when the stock market crashed and she had to come home. The toddler Richard remembered little or nothing of the whole expedition and rarely spoke of it, though he reported in his fiction that it had been “confused and unpleasant” for his mother—who could hardly pronounce, much less speak, French, and who was almost certainly broke most of the time (no matter how much she later milked the subject for conversational purposes). As for her work as a sculptor, it must have improved somewhat, since she began to have her first minor successes not long after her return, and certainly she liked to invoke Landowski as one of her mentors.
But perhaps the most significant impact was psychological: Dookie seems to have become even less conventional after Paris, a liberation that may have begun amid the studios and cafés of the Left Bank, or else was just the inevitable letting-go of a lonely divorcée at loose ends (in Depression-era Greenwich Village, no less). Somewhat paradoxically, though, she remained much concerned with matters of propriety: reluctant to speak of indelicate things, and always an elegant dresser—though also rather loud and crude at times, and her well-chosen clothes tended to be stained in some sadly obvious way. Perhaps all this was reconciled in the name of worldliness, or nobility at odds with circumstance, but one can’t help wondering how it affected her son, who inherited the same contradictions to a remarkable degree. Also (as a young man anyway) he cherished the dream of Paris as a place where one might find oneself as an artist and a man, though in this respect his mother wasn’t the only influence.
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For a while after her return, Dookie and the children were all but alone in the world. Her family hadn’t approved of the divorce, and later relished the chance to spell this out by refusing to come to Ruth’s wedding. In the meantime they simply stayed away. Dookie’s older sister Elsa was the one exception, and since she lived nearby and was willing to help (her ill-fated husband lay a few years in the future), she must have been a comfort—anyway up to a point. “Elsa was very sensible in contrast to Dook,” Yates’s first wife Sheila remembered. “But she rode it pretty hard.” The woman appears as the “bossy and meddlesome and condescending” Eva in A Special Providence, who disapproves of her sister’s marriage and then of her divorce; still, Elsa deserves a certain amount of credit just for sticking around, as she did for the duration of Yates’s childhood and beyond, amid sporadic (and no doubt salutary) estrangements. Her grandnephew Peter described her as “a stable center” in the children’s lives, suggesting the lack of that quality in every other respect. And while Yates would sometimes complain that it was his lot to live among women—a mother, sister, and maiden aunt; later two wives and three daughters—he seemed grateful to Elsa for propping his mother up through her many misadventures.
And Elsa had every reason to be exasperated, of course. A notable cause of Dookie’s loneliness, then as later, was her singular lack of compunction where money was concerned. Her only income at the height of the Depression was whatever small amount Vincent could spare in the way of alimony and child support, and yet she insisted on a standard of gentility—large apartments in the Village or rented homes in “nice” suburban neighborhoods—that she couldn’t remotely afford to maintain. When the money ran out, as it always did, she’d sponge off friends and neighbors until there was nobody left and it was time to move on. “Dook’s fantastic schemes have a horribly dreamlike almost nightmarish quality when they begin to crash about her ears,” Sheila Yates wrote her husband in the fifties, when such disasters had become a dreadful theme in their lives. But the whole “hysterical odyssey” had begun some twenty years before, as Dookie’s determination to be an artist—to vindicate herself in the eyes of a patronizing, provincial family and ex-husband—distracted her almost entirely from the more practical aspects of motherhood.
And while the bills went unpaid and the family was evicted from one place after another, Dookie became all the more emotionally dependent on her children. She encouraged them to view their chaotic lives as an adventure—the three of them against the world. “She was a free spirit,” Yates wrote in “Regards at Home.” “We were free spirits, and only a world composed of creditors or of ‘people like your father’ could fail to appreciate the romance of our lives.” As part of the romance Dookie would read aloud from Great Expectations when they were hungry or awaiting another eviction. The children could further identify with Dickens in terms of their seedy clothes, which made them conspicuous at whatever new school, in whatever “nice” neighborhood, they found themselves from one year to the next. At the time Yates adored what he perceived to be his mother’s “gallantry and goodness,” and since he made few friends— perpetually being “the only new boy and the only poor boy”—he became almost desperately attached to Dookie, and vice versa. For the rest of his life he was terrified of being left alone, and during childhood his shattered nerves were evidenced by (among other things) a bad stammer, which later seemed to return in the form of a chronic cough that became more pronounced when he was ill at ease.
And what about the art for which all these sacrifices were made? “She wasn’t a very good sculptor,” Yates put it bluntly in “Joseph,” referring mostly (if not entirely) to the “stiff and amateurish” quality of her early work, circa 1932. Her specialty, after Paris, was modeled garden figures cast in lead—nymphs and geese and pipe-playing Pans that were meant to decorate the lawns of the wealthy but usually ended up as part of a growing clutter that followed the family into their next living space, however modest. But Dookie remained undaunted; a big sale or “one-man exhibition” was forever in the offing, and while occasional little coups did occur, they never brought much in the way of money or acclaim. Meanwhile Dookie’s favorite model for her faunlets, often posed in the nude, was the small, obliging Richard; in A Special Providence the mortified four-year-old son of Alice Prentice hunches over to cover his genitals, “round-eyed with humiliation,” while neighborhood children laugh at him from a studio window.*
Many years later Yates told his youngest daughter, Gina, that what he remembered best about his mother was her body odor—that she smelled bad, no matter how hard she tried to clean herself, doubtless the “rotten tomato” smell he attributes to Gloria Drake in Cold Spring Harbor. And body odor is one of many ignominious, nasty physical details that recur among Dookie’s fictional personae: rotten teeth, lipstick smeared outside the mouth, stained clothing, sweat-darkened armpits, and so on—most of which work to suggest the essential instability of the woman, her sweaty incipient hysteria. In many cases Yates makes the matter explicit, as in “Regards at Home”: “It had often occurred to me that she was crazy—there had been people who said she was crazy as long as I could remember.” Gloria Drake is flatly described as “mentally ill,” and everywhere in Yates’s work there are scenes of screaming, writhing fits thrown by mother characters (“after she’d lost all control and gone on shouting anyway”). In short, it seems far from implausible that Dookie suffered from a degree of mental illness, possibly the manic depression that afflicted her son (a disorder that’s almost entirely genetic in origin), or perhaps some other form of mood disorder. And even if there weren’t such a hereditary link, the chaos she always engendered would have certainly taken a psychological toll. As it happened, Yates later complained of “cruel, bullying voices” in his head that made it hard to sleep and often horrific to dream—voices that evoked some bizarre tantrum or another that he’d overheard as a child.
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After a couple of years in a rural Connecticut farmhouse (though it was far beyond Dookie’s means, its chief virtue was a large barn where she could work on her sculpture), the family moved to its first and perhaps best Greenwich Village apartment—the place on Bedford Street so lovingly described in “Joseph”: “There were six or eight old houses facing our side of the courtyard … and ours was probably the showplace of the row because the front room on its ground floor was two stories high.” Dookie crowded the room with her garden figures and turned it into a “high, wide, light-flooded studio,” while Ruth and Richard shared one of the two small bedrooms upstairs. When alone together, the children mostly spent their time either playing in the courtyard (“a few stunted city trees and a patch of grass” that Dookie always called “the garden”) or listening to afternoon children’s programs on their Majestic radio in the dining room. Toward the back of the ground floor was the least appealing part of this or any of their apartments: a “roach-infested kitchen” with “a stove and sink that were never clean” and “a brown wooden icebox with its dark, ever-melting block of ice.” Apart from an instinct for rudimentary tidiness that she passed on to her son, Dookie had little apparent relish for detailed housework. Rather than wash the dirty dishes, she’d regularly send her children out to buy paper plates, and Yates mentions the odors of mildew and cat droppings and plasticene to evoke the basic bouquet of his childhood.
Most days Dookie worked hard at her craft, but it would be several years before she had any sort of gainful employment, and the leisure hours must have seemed long at times. Later she became active in a number of art organizations, but as long as her children were still at home there was less need for such distraction. The three of them were together constantly, and their principal way of killing time was going to the movies. As an adult Yates lost the habit entirely, and once when someone left him a television he never bothered to plug it in; but he often startled friends with detailed and rather emotional accounts of the movies he’d seen in the thirties. “I wasn’t a bookish child,” he wrote in a 1981 essay; “reading was such hard work for me that I avoided it whenever possible. But I wasn’t exactly the rough-and-ready type either, and so the movies filled a double need: They gave me an awful lot of cheap story material and a good place to hide.” Slight, frail, and morbidly shy, Yates felt intimidated by the tough Italian kids in the Village, and for a long time wasn’t entirely at ease in any company other than his mother and sister’s. Like the Drakes in Cold Spring Harbor, the three didn’t bother to check show times, but simply wandered in off the street: “[M]uch of their pleasure came from waiting for a prolonged confusion to clarify itself on the screen”; then, after the movie had come full circle, they’d watch it again “to intensify the story they already knew.” Such total insularity in their everyday routines might have led to rather esoteric behavior, not unlike the Drakes’ “ritualized baby talk that no outsider could probably have followed.” Little wonder Yates had trouble adjusting to the various institutions (prep school, the army, and so on) of the outside world.
Despite a lifelong dependence on her children, Dookie was not entirely without friends; in fact her new Village milieu afforded a number of congenial people who seemed to appreciate her as an artist and hostess. One of her neighbors on Bedford Street was Howard Cushman, best known as E. B. White’s roommate at Cornell. Dookie and “Cush” became friends, and at least once he brought the illustrious White around to meet the twelve-year-old Ruth, who’d started her own weekly courtyard newspaper modeled somewhat after The New Yorker (Ruth’s younger brother would also become a great fan of the magazine). Cushman’s daughter from a previous marriage, Nancy, was Richard’s age and a playmate of sorts. One of her father’s gags was to drape her in his suit jacket and crouch behind her with his own arms in the sleeves—a routine Yates described in “Joseph” and later adopted with his own daughters: “the sight of a smiling little girl … waving and gesturing with huge, expressive hands, was enough to make everyone smile.” Such parlor tricks formed the lighter side of Village domestic life.
Perhaps the most abiding friendship of Dookie’s adult life was with Cushman’s ex-wife Elisabeth, a journalist who’d met her former husband in the city room of a New Rochelle newspaper. On the surface she and Dookie had little in common: Elisabeth Cushman was a self-supporting socialist who (as Yates characterized her in “Trying Out for the Race”) “liked to have it known that both her parents were illiterate Irish immigrants”; while Dookie’s ancestors were scarcely more distinguished, this was the sort of thing that chafed at her quasi-aristocratic Republican sensibilities. But happily each was rather bitter about life and appreciated the other’s mordant wit—“they would get together and trash things,” as one friend put it—beyond which lay an even deeper affinity. “Richard, we are growing old,” Cushman wrote the nineteen-year-old Yates in the course of describing how she and Dookie had just celebrated VE-day. “You were too young to know the evenings when a pinch bottle, Haig and Haig, was but a drop in our bucket.” Judging by his fiction, however, Yates had known such evenings all too vividly, as well as other evenings and other drinking companions—the various boozy, dilettantish divorcées whom Dookie cultivated in the Village, the Natalie Crawford and Sloane Cabot types who “liked to use words like ‘simpatico’” and wrote unsalable radio scripts whose characters included “a sad-eyed, seven-year-old philosopher” with a comical stammer.
There was a lot of drinking, and the consequences were often unfortunate given the presence of small children. Yates never quite got over the shock, however often repeated, of seeing strange men at his mother’s breakfast table, and made a point of never exposing his daughters to any woman who was not his wife. Indeed, Dookie’s alcoholism and love affairs suggested a larger, more troubling theme to Yates’s mind—what he referred to, reluctantly in so many words, as an improper closeness with his mother. One hastens to add that Yates despised psychological jargon and wasn’t apt to invoke Oedipus complexes and the like, much less accuse his mother of sinister motives, conscious or otherwise. Which is not to say that he didn’t blame her, and deeply, for the damage done. Such was his sense of helplessness as a child—reinforced in any number of ways by his mother—that he’d often throw panic-stricken, seizurelike tantrums when she’d leave him alone at night, and he never forgot what it was like to lie awake in the dark, wondering when or if she’d ever come home. And when she did, late, drunk, she had a tendency to comfort her son by getting into bed with him—at least once, as in “Joseph,” she vomited on his pillow. “Yates felt enraged at his mother,” said his psychiatrist Winthrop Burr, who recalled that Yates (usually circumspect to the point of brusqueness during their sessions) would often get “on the edge of tearful” when he discussed her. Her alcoholic inconstancy, along with the mutual dependence she always elicited, was a disastrous combination. “It was as if he were her only confidant,” said Burr. “He gave a picture of the two of them alone in the world. The sister was a blank.”
To a great extent the sister was overshadowed by the mother (Prentice’s lack of a sibling in A Special Providence is telling), at least in terms of pathological impact. But Ruth, too, was much on Yates’s mind, especially in light of later events. On the rare occasions that he’d mention her as an adult, he tended to say they had little in common, and in a way this was true; but it was also misleading, if only by omission, perhaps because Yates preferred to work out the deeper truth in his fiction. Ruth was characterized as “the most stable member of the family,” the one like her father, and as such she was a good sister to Richard. “They were comrades in a difficult situation,” said Martha Speer, Yates’s second wife, who remembered stories of Ruth and her brother having to forage for food and generally look out for each other. But it was more than a matter of Ruth’s being the (relatively) responsible, protective one—she was also the imaginative one, at least as a child, and almost as painfully sensitive as her brother. Like him she aspired to be a writer from a very early age: There were the weekly newspapers she devised, the plays she acted out with paper dolls, and at night she’d lull Richard to sleep with stories she made up in the various bedrooms they shared (“someone should probably have told my mother that a girl and boy of our ages ought to have separate rooms,” Yates noted ruefully in “Joseph”). And all her life Ruth cried a lot, though the cause was liable to be emotional rather than physical. Like Sarah Grimes in The Easter Parade, the young Ruth split her head open on a steel pipe,* which left a small but permanent scar as well as the impression, which her brother never forgot, that she bore pain remarkably well.
But perhaps Ruth’s most salient feature is suggested by Sarah’s “look of trusting innocence that would never leave her.” Such innocence, coupled with the awful insecurity she shared with her brother, would lead Ruth into a ruinous life-wrecking marriage—or so Yates believed, and characteristically he blamed his mother. “Even now, at nineteen,” he wrote of the Ruth character, Rachel Drake, in Cold Spring Harbor, “she felt heavily handicapped by ignorance”; but Rachel’s mother refuses to discuss indelicate things like the facts of life with her: “She could evade almost any question with her little shuddering laugh … and the troubling thing about this attitude was that it seemed always to come from carelessness, or laziness, rather than from any kind of principle.” Pookie in The Easter Parade is similarly evasive, and when the fourteen-year-old Alice Towers in “Trying Out for the Race” asks her mother Lucy about a pregnant schoolmate, Lucy responds with “revulsion” and tells her daughter, in effect, to mind her own business: “And Alice looked wounded, an expression even more frequent on her face lately than on her mother’s, or her brother’s.” Whether Dookie was guilty of such pernicious hypocrisy is hard to say, and may be little more than a tendentious attempt on Yates’s part to make sense of his sister’s tragedy. That Ruth was something of a naïf, though, and sadly desperate for love and assurance, is not in doubt. As a teenager she joined Frank Buchman’s “Moral Rearmament” movement, which encouraged confessions and chaste “open love” among its members, and not long after that she would find a more final escape in marriage.
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Dookie’s first real success as an artist, at least in terms of exposure, came in 1933 when she was given the opportunity to sculpt a bust of President-elect Roosevelt. The whole episode is so superbly recounted in “Oh, Joseph, I’m So Tired,” that it’s difficult to do much more than speculate and summarize. Probably her friend Howard Cushman (called Howard Whitman in the story) did get her the entrée, as Dookie would have it, through an old newspaper friend who was part of Roosevelt’s New York staff. And Dookie would certainly be apt to regale her friends with an account of irreverent banter at FDR’s expense while she measured his head: “I said, ‘I didn’t vote for you, Mr. President.’ I said, ‘I’m a good Republican and I voted for President Hoover.’ He said, ‘Why are you here, then?’… and I said, ‘Because you have a very interesting head … I like the bumps on it.’” And Yates’s appraisal of the motive for such effrontery, indeed for the whole affair—namely, that the headlines would scream, GAL SCULPTOR TWITS FDR FOR “BUMPS” ON HEAD—pretty much puts the matter in a nutshell. The episode seems almost too pat in terms of the quintessential Yates story, what with its romantic-minded mother about to realize her dreams at last, only to be crushed by the cruel disparity between expectations and reality.
Of course such a précis hardly does justice to a story as subtly textured as “Joseph,” though perhaps it does sum up the basic facts of the case. That Dookie’s FDR head was laughably “too small” and “looked like a serviceable bank for loose change” is not just an ingenious objective correlative for the story’s sake (though it’s that too)—in fact the head was “about half life-size,” according to the only real publicity the business attracted, about seventy-five words buried in section 2, page 3, column 8, of the New York Times:
BUST GIVEN ROOSEVELT. President Sat for Ruth Yates at January Press Conference.… A small bronze [lead] bust of President Roosevelt was presented to him today by Miss Ruth Yates, New York sculptor. The bust, which is about half life-size, was made during Mr. Roosevelt’s press conference at his New York house, just before his trip to Warm Springs in January. This was the only time he could devote to sittings for the bust.
A further line mentioned that Miss Yates “studied under Paul Landowski in Paris,” but said nothing about how (as Yates imagined the newsreel and feature articles Dookie might have hoped for) “she’d come from a small Ohio town, or of how she’d nurtured her talent through the brave, difficult, one-woman journey that had brought her to the attention of the world.”
But it was a start, and meanwhile Dookie’s life seemed to look up in other respects, since around this time she found her only enduring boyfriend after the divorce—the “tall and dignified and aristocratic” Englishman who appears as Eric Nicholson in “Joseph” and Sterling Nelson in A Special Providence. As with the FDR story, one can add little to the fiction; all that’s known for sure, more or less, is that such a man existed and stuck around for a year or so before suddenly dropping out of sight to Dookie’s and the children’s regret—though in the children’s case it was more a matter of longing for a conventional home life than any particular fondness for the man himself. As for the details, they’re all but identical in both the novel and story: The man apparently worked in the New York office of a British export firm (specified as a “chain of foundries” in “Joseph”) and “had a wife in England from whom he wasn’t yet technically divorced”; at some point he seems to have persuaded Dookie and the children to share a house with him in Scarsdale, despite the stigma of living out of wedlock in such a community (“the question of whether or not she would find it awkward being called ‘Mrs. Nelson’ remained unsolved; nobody in Scarsdale called her anything at all”); and one day he escaped his creditors by returning to England and his wife, leaving a lot of shabby furniture and forged art as a kind of consolation prize for Dookie. The forged art (described as such in A Special Providence) may have been a flourish of poetic license on Yates’s part, along with the three-year subscription to Field & Stream Nicholson gives the seven-year-old son in “Joseph” (“that impenetrable magazine was the least appropriate of all his gifts because it kept coming in the mail for such a long, long time after everything else had changed for us”)—but one suspects such details are as true as the rest of it, further testimony to Yates’s selective genius, his ability to shape life in the precise terms of his artistic vision.
The gentility of living in Scarsdale must have grown on Dookie, despite her neighbors’ indifference or outright hostility toward the odd woman who spent her days sculpting in the garage. Because the Englishman’s desertion left her unable to pay the rent, and because she was lonely, she coaxed her friend Elisabeth Cushman to move with her daughter Nancy into a somewhat cheaper house Dookie had found on the nearby Post Road. Together the two families could even afford a live-in maid, though that left them with only one bedroom per family.
The arrangement was probably not as volatile as it’s depicted in the story “Trying Out for the Race,” or rather there seems not to have been any (lasting) clash between the two mothers; but the respective dysfunctions of the families appear to be faithfully portrayed. “Some time let’s have a little discussion about that sentiment-smothered thing called maternity,” Elisabeth Cushman wrote Yates somewhat later, having referred to her daughter in the same letter as a “zombie child.” From this one might safely assume the factual basis of the frenzied quarreling between Elizabeth Hogan Baker and her nine-year-old daughter in the story, culminating in such remarks as, “I wish that child were at the bottom of the sea.” Bad mothers and a tendency to throw tantrums were things Nancy and Richard had in common as children, with a difference in the former’s case that might have proved fortunate to the latter: “I know she’ll come back,” Nancy says calmly to Russell/Richard in the story,* after her mother abandons her for an assignation in the city. “She always does”—whereupon the boy reflects that “an attitude like that was exactly what he needed in his own life.” Whether or not by Nancy’s example, a somewhat greater maturity on Richard’s part is suggested by the fact that, around the age of ten, he began to make a friend or two among boys his own age; and lest he seem a sissy in their eyes, he made a point of either ignoring or terrorizing his female housemate during their visits, as she remembers to this day.
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The move in 1937 to Beechwood, the vast estate of Frank A. Vanderlip in Scarborough-on-Hudson, was the result of Dookie’s work as a sculpting teacher. The Westchester Workshop in White Plains didn’t pay much, but Dookie’s loneliness and boredom must have been desperate enough by then to make her classes more than worthwhile, especially since her students (as Yates described them in A Special Providence) tended to be “women of her own age or older, prosperously married and vaguely dissatisfied.” A few of these women befriended Dookie, and one of them arranged for her to meet the chatelaine of Beechwood, Mrs. Vanderlip herself, who seems to have been charmed: She not only agreed to rent Dookie one of the outbuildings but also gave her the use of a large studio space where she could teach private classes and thereby make enough money, in theory, to pay for the privilege of being in such rarefied surroundings.
And for a time they were happy. Beechwood was congenial in almost every respect: The fifty-acre estate was a well-manicured wilderness of elms and beeches and giant rhododendron bushes, in the midst of which ran a clear brook and many slate paths, past statuary and gardens transplanted whole from European castles. Above it all loomed the Vanderlip’s five-story mansion, visible from every part of the estate, and a constant reminder of the sort of aristocratic grace to which Dookie so wistfully aspired. Just as importantly, the Vanderlips themselves were no philistine tycoons but rather great patrons of education and the arts. On the property was the ultraprogressive Scarborough Country Day School, founded by Frank Vanderlip in 1913, a place where arts and crafts were emphasized almost as much as science and math. Creativity in general was much admired, and talented people were always welcome at Beechwood: Isadora Duncan had danced on the lawn, and another great chronicler of the American middle class would later occupy a house there. “The swimming pool is curbed with Italian marble,” John Cheever wrote in a 1951 letter from Beechwood, at the beginning of his almost-ten-year tenancy, “lucent and shining like loaves of fine sugar.”
The Yates family had recourse to the same pool, not far from the northeast corner of the estate, where they lived in a white stucco gatehouse. Formerly the school’s kindergarten, it consisted of a single large room (about thirty feet square) plus a tiny bedroom, bathroom, and kitchen. The quarters were tight as ever—the children had to sleep in the main studio-cum-living-room—but at least now there was less reason for the timid Richard to hide inside with his mother and sister. Dookie had enrolled her children in Scarborough Country Day (needless to say she couldn’t really afford the tuition), and the eleven-year-old Yates blossomed there. “He used to speak of it as the peak of his childhood popularity,” said his daughter Sharon, “followed by a long, nasty descent into an unhappy puberty.”
The school philosophy placed heavy emphasis on fostering “growth” and “uniqueness,” and this allowed Yates to tap into a latent (at least where the outside world was concerned) silliness that stood him in good stead among children almost as quirky as he. He was much given to making droll and generally inoffensive fun of students and teachers alike. When the art teacher asked the class to paint a picture expressing their emotions, Yates submitted a blank sheet of paper titled “Gloom”—a work that belied his remarkable facility as a cartoonist. “He doodled on everything,” his friend Stephen Benedict remembered, “papers at school, doilies, letters—images of cats, caricatures of teachers, Joe Louis, Adolf Hitler.” Such doodling remained an abiding interest, but at the time Yates’s fame as a poet was far greater. “The doggerel poured out of him,” said Benedict, and the headmaster’s daughter, Mary Jo McClusky (who had a crush on Yates), wrote him a fan letter forty years later in which she remarked, “I remember how you used to delight us all with your spur-of-the-moment poems—guess you were destined to be a writer!” A writer of prose anyway; a sample of Yates’s output from this time suggests he was unlikely to rival his beloved Keats:
The only noise I hear all day,
is the clanking of a can.
I drive a dirty-smelly truck,
for I am a garbage man.
The city dumps its waste on me,
to throw into the river.
And I can’t stand that gooey smell,
it kinda turns my liver.
Yates was elected president of his class,* which must have seemed an apotheosis of sorts after the morbidities of his early childhood.
Stephen Benedict and his older brother Russell were Yates’s best friends in Scarborough, and the youngsters’ activities suggest the kind of off-center precocity Yates may have had in mind when he described the “interesting” products of progressive education in A Special Providence. Stephen and Richard formed the Scarborough Jitterbugs, a two-man ocarina band that approximated such popular standards as the Andrews Sisters’ “Bei Mir Bist Du Schoen” and “Oh, Johnny, Oh!” “We energetically rehearsed, then tootled away on numerous occasions for anyone who’d listen,” Benedict recalled. “Almost every piece would be punctuated by one of us with the sepulchral moo of an enormous bass ocarina, certain to break up anyone in range. That sad yet comic sound will forever bring Dick to mind.” Perhaps encouraged by her son’s ocarina prowess—or just the general ambience of juvenile creativity—Dookie hired a Mr. Bostelman to give Richard private violin lessons at the gatehouse; either the instrument didn’t catch on or Dookie didn’t pay the man or both, but Yates’s musical career seems to have stalled with the Scarborough Jitterbugs. Meanwhile Russell Benedict (influenced by Yates’s sister?) started a weekly newspaper in his basement, the Scarborough News Sheet—six pages of society items, gossip, cartoons and gags (Yates’s contribution), and the odd subversive bit such as a photo Russell had taken, and pasted in all one hundred copies, of a drowned vagrant woman on a slab at the local morgue. Corpses withal, such a novel and nourishing world came at a crucial time for Yates, and had a lingering impact that went well beyond the obvious. He pondered this in a 1961 letter, written after a reunion with Stephen Benedict and two weeks before the publication of his first and most famous novel:
Had dinner tonight with an old boyhood friend from the years 1937–39 when I lived in a town called Scarborough, whose amateur theatre group (“The Beechwood Players”) served as the original for “The Laurel Players” in my book. He found it incredible, and I found it spooky, that I had completely failed to remember the name of a winding blacktop road in that town on which he and I and many of our schoolmates used to pass the most impressionable hours of our formative years: “Revolutionary Road.” Pretty Freudian, buddy.
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The “sad yet comic” moo of the bass ocarina (a strikingly apt leitmotiv for the life of Richard Yates) should be sounded at this point, as things began to fall apart in Scarborough. For one thing, Yates’s relative popularity wasn’t likely to last while his “long, nasty descent” into puberty gained momentum. By the age of thirteen he was already taller than most of his peers, but not much developed in other respects—if anything, the attenuation of his body seemed to make him weaker, and he could hardly have appeared more clumsy if he’d tried milking it for laughs (which he didn’t). And despite the school’s emphasis on creativity and so forth, it also lavished prestige on its student athletes, especially in the upper grades, and this universal fact of prep-school life boded ill for Yates. Even Stephen Benedict—who was smaller and a year younger—always prevailed in their frequent wrestling matches, which seemed to bother Yates in a quiet way. For the rest of his life, in fact, he’d be haunted by a sense of physical inadequacy, which would manifest itself in a number of curious and not-so-curious ways.
And then of course there was the matter of Yates’s poverty, for which his seedy, undernourished appearance served as a kind of advertisement. Most of his schoolmates came from wealthy or at least comfortably middle-class families, and Yates was made keenly and increasingly aware of their snobbery. Susan Cheever, who experienced the same paradox while living at Beechwood, wrote, “We had the luxuries of the very rich—rolling lawns, a swimming pool, gardeners who doffed their caps—but we were tenants, scraping to get by.” And here was the dark side of Scarborough: Though creativity and personal charm were pluses, they were no substitute for money, and one learned the hard way how suddenly one’s sense of belonging could evaporate when a few bills weren’t paid. For her part Dookie worked hard to preserve her cherished foothold on the estate: She tried to recruit more students as well as improve her own work (in the hope of that elusive, lucrative “one-man exhibition”) by dispensing with garden sculpture in favor of direct stone carving and abstract forms. But her progress as an artist brought little material reward, and the good life she’d come so close to grasping began to slip away.
It had to be a bitter business. Almost nightly the Vanderlips entertained in their downstairs parlor, and the elegant guests in their evening clothes could be seen through tall lighted windows. Dookie herself had attended the larger parties in the ballroom, amid grand pianos, liveried servants, and the great Van Dyck painting Andromeda, as such occasions tended to be open to the nicer and more creative part of the public—to all, that is, but the truly impecunious, as the Yateses would soon become. But then at least one member of the family definitely benefited (as an artist anyway) from such harsh reversals, since a lifelong sense of exclusion informed the best of Yates’s work (a scene in A Special Providence, for example, has Alice arriving at “Boxwood” and attending the Vander Meers’ lavish Christmas party; it pays homage to a similar scene in Madame Bovary).
From the practical viewpoint of which she was wholly incapable, Dookie never had any business living at Beechwood, though she wasn’t one to give up without a fight. No doubt she tried to get her children’s scholarships increased at the school, and was denied on the basis of merit (or lack thereof).* And no doubt she got her exasperated ex-husband to agree, yet again, to exceed the terms of the divorce agreement and pay off the more immediate bills. Perhaps Dookie continued to hope that the larger situation could still be saved somehow (more students, a one-man show), even as she grew more “cranky,” as Stephen Benedict recalled, “combined with a good deal of cynicism about life in general, which she clearly felt had not been good to her.” Life would get a lot worse: Before long she was telling her children not to answer the door, and finally the Vanderlips took legal action to evict her and recover the many months of unpaid rent. There was no time to finish the school year when Dookie and her children fled an entire region of creditors in the spring of 1939. “All I remember is that you sort of disappeared overnight,” the headmaster’s daughter wrote Yates, “and no one would tell me why, and I was heartbroken!”
They found refuge of sorts in Austin, Texas, where Aunt Elsa had gone to live after her marriage to the math professor. This much we know, and if we trust A Special Providence (and perhaps we should at this point, at least in terms of the big picture), we can also assume that Elsa’s semiretired husband was something of an anti-Semite who drank too much and liked to hold forth on such topics as “the menacing rise of the American Negro.” What matters for our purpose is that he seems to have found Dookie distasteful and bullied her son, a mama’s boy (he thought) who should be back in school. “I hate him! I hate him!” Alice Prentice ends up screaming at her hapless sister. “Oh, I know you only married him because he was all you could get, but you’re a fool! He’s a beast!” Or words to that effect, which understandably might have led to both mother and children staggering through a sweltering construction site with their suitcases in hand and a total of seventy-five cents among them. What’s interesting and pertinent about this scene, as rendered in the novel, is the way the “cheerful, heartening” son helps his mother overcome her exhaustion by encouraging her to imagine that the hot “caliche” dust is actually snow, a freezing blizzard from which they have to escape as quickly as possible. “For years, whenever they were faced with any ordeal, she would gain strength from saying ‘Remember the Caliche Road?’”
Yates remembered the Caliche Road all right, in whatever form it took, but as time went on he became less inclined to collude in his mother’s delusions. Indeed, his childhood tendency to be an accomplice to such folly, as well as its foremost victim, would forever rankle. As much as anything this was the goad that made him determined to expose the truth, no matter how depressing, that people like Dookie are apt to bury beneath layers of everyday self-deceit. For Yates it was a matter of good art, though it certainly applied to life as well—to friends, family, and (arguably with the poorest result) himself. “The most important thing,” he liked to say, “is not to tell or live a lie.” Pity and forgiveness were important too, however hard they came when one knew the worst about a person. Once, when Yates was responding to questions about his work, a young woman commented on how awful the mother was in A Special Providence—“so careless and thoughtless and self-centered”—and asked Yates what he thought of her. “Oh, I don’t know,” he said quietly. “I guess I sort of love her.”