Let us run through his recollections of the first days and weeks after he was wounded, the opening section of his journal. What do they tell us? How did his world disintegrate so thoroughly that he was never able to assemble the bits and pieces that remained?
He found himself in a hospital, and saw a group of people bending over him. Shortly thereafter, he remembered seeing different people approach him and ask how he was feeling. And with these first contacts, his life suddenly became terribly difficult. Let us examine some sections of his journal which describe the particular kinds of problems he encountered.